my thoughts for today

today is a very auspicious day for Buddhists, it's one
of the few Buddhist "holidays". say some prayers!!

i am happy that the blog is coming along well, and
that people are responding. it's amusing to me that so
many people have responded to my "downer" post...i
don't feel that way all the time, but sometimes i have
doubts and fears. that's natural and i think most
people have them from time to time. i think that's why
i wrote about it, because we are all in the same boat
(generally speaking)and i think people complicate
their problems by feeling that they are all alone and
no one knows what they are going through.

on the other hand it seems to be human nature to have
to make our own mistakes. from a micro to a macro
level we aren't too good at learning from the past and
what our parents and families can teach us...we have
to trip and fall on our own to make us feel satiated,
that we didn't miss out on the experience. for example
how many people touch the plate in the restaurant when
the waiter plops it down and says "watch out it's hot"
?

as a buddhist i sometimes run across this as well. we
have to make this huge journey to finally discover
that the secret was within us the whole time...like a
blind beggar carrying around a diamond, but the
journey is part of it and valid...no one could believe
that it from the get go. in "what the !@#$% do we
know" a wonderful movie about Quantum Physics that
came out last year there is an interview with a
Professor and he says something like "if you wanted
to, you could walk on water...the problem is that you
only believe with 1% of your brain that you can and
the other 99% is saying "you can't do that". but if
you could get 100% of your belief and brain behind
that you could do anything"

wouldn't it be wonderful if we could learn from the
wise. there's an old saying that the wise man is one
who realizes how little he knows. or jesus saying that
you you must be like a child to enter the kingdom of
heaven (or something like that). but most people
aren't like that...how do you know what MY best
interests are (all i wanted was a pepsi!!!)

anyway i feel like im starting to ramble, and i'm
hungry to i think i'll say ttfn.